Peace Out, Purple Crying!

I think I can finally say that Luke is through with the purple crying stage. I can't believe that its finally over. It was way too hard for me to watch him go through this. Matt and I both were having a hard time staying patient for it but when one of us had enough for the night then it was the other's turn. We also had a lot of help from my parents. Last night he had no tears or screams either except his extreme exhaustion whining at 2 am. It was like he reverted, for a night, back to when he was a couple weeks old. I can't believe that hes going to be 4 months old in a few weeks. I just put him to bed with no tears or blood-curdling screams. Just him asleep after his bed time bottle. YAY!!! I'm so glad! Matt is still at A.T. though today he told me that he has decided that he is going to try to be deployed with his cousin's unit, which will probably be to Afghanistan. I'm really not happy about it but its what he feels he needs to do. But he doesn't even know if he is going to be able to go. It all depends on if there is a spot in the unit for him to go. Anyway it's now time to sleep while I can.

A.T. Day 1 and Another brick in the wall.

Well Matt started A.T. yesterday and its really hard for me this time. I mean he is gone for two weeks but this time he's at Camp Williams which is 20-30 minutes away from our home, depending on traffic that is.It was great that he was able to come home on Sunday and he's going to try to come home this weekend and I really hope he can. Luke and I miss him so much. On another note Luke has been in the "period of purple crying" stage. Its been really hard he gets so tired and it makes him cry even more. I have tried everything but if i play music for him it works and it has to be certain music. For example on Saturday he fell asleep to "Raise Your Glass" by Pink. Tonight was no different with him falling asleep to "Another Brick in the Wall" by Pink Floyd. Which I'm really not surprised, I listened to that type of music while i was pregnant with him and actually still do. At least he has good taste lol.

So Mad!

I'm so fed up with being nice. I mean I work hard on something that I really shouldn't be bothering with and i get no appreciation for it. Am i being selfish for wanting to be appreciated for the things i do especially when i work my butt off making it perfect!!! I'm so mad!!!! but i feel like i have no right to be so I'll probably swallow my pride and anger and go back to being a fricking doormat. FYI my face doesn't say " wipe your paws"! Oh great my hand cramped up.