The Flakiest Employee Award Goes To....

Me of course! I feel really bad, see all week i was trying to get an earlier ENT appointment so i could possibly go back to work this weekend. Sadly there wasn't a cancellation so i have to wait until Wednesday. So yesterday I went to get a doctor's note to excuse me from work this weekend. My boss wasn't thrilled at all. He asked how long did i know that i wasn't going to be able to work. I explained the whole situation about trying to get a sooner appointment. So he's going to keep me off the schedule until he knows otherwise. Wednesday was horrible, this vertigo or whatever it is started again and it actually lasted longer then it ever has. 8 HOURS!!!! Matt and my dad ended up giving me a blessing which helped a lot. But every time i tried to eat something it wouldn't stay down. I couldn't even keep my nausea and dizziness medicine down. I'm just so glad to have men in my life that hold the priesthood!

Finally...

So I had another doctor appointment today to find out what is wrong. I so glad to see a doctor that actually seems to know what they are talking about. He thinks it is likely Vertigo (points for Jessica!!!). He also said that there is a chance that its Meniere's disease but he seemed more sure that its vertigo. He prescribed Meclizine which is a motion sickness medicine and got me an appointment with an Ear, Nose, and Throat doctor. The soonest appointment they had is Wednesday may 4Th. I wanted to get in sooner because I'm suppose to work this Friday and Saturday. I'm hoping that there is a cancellation so i can get in before the end of the week so i can work. If not, however, the doctor did say that they can give me a note to be excused from work. I just hope all of this work that i have had to miss won't cause my boss to fire me!

I hate the run around!!!

So I went to the audiologist appointment yesterday. Which was a waste of time, she didn't tell me anything I didn't already know. Yes, I have moderate to severe hearing loss in my left ear, but what about the dizziness? NOTHING!!! I'm suppose to go back to work tomorrow and I still can't find out whats wrong with me. Not to mention work won't let me come back without being released by the doctor. This is so stupid. So now I'm waiting to hear from the doctor so I can know what they want me to do now!!! At least I get a new phone today or this whole day would suck!!! But I still can't do anything on my phone until I get the new one. Oh well!!!

Miss Irritation is back?!

Well Miss Irritation is this girl who Matt has been friends with for years. I know were really not suppose to hate people and I try not to. However I'm not perfect and there are to girls that I absolutely loathe. Miss Irritation is definitely one of them. I've tried to be nice and friendly to her for Matt she has to blow it. I mean just because you are friends with a guy who is happily married doesn't mean you have the right to tell that friend that they should of married you!!! Anyway after she told him that Matt and I met with our Bishop to figure out what to do. He told Matt to talk to her and have her stop contacting him. So he was suppose to and we decided to have a deadline for him, which was when Luke is born. Well he is still friends with her and has even been invited to her kids birthday party. He is thinking about going but keeps asking me if I want him to or if its okay with me. He knows that i don't want him to go but i can't exactly tell him that because he'll be mad. But he just doesn't seem to understand that it hurts me that he is still friends with her. And add that to how I have been feeling since Fridays awesomeness makes me want to sleep for a year or something.

Residual Effects

So the residual effects from a stellar yesterday is still here. I woke up today completely drained, its hard, I feel like I don't have the energy to take care of Luke. It's not fair. I know I must be complaining a lot. I usually try not to have a "poor me" attitude. I've been around people like that and they are really negative. But being a good mother is all I have ever wanted to be. I feel like whatever is wrong with me makes that nearly impossible. I was suppose to work today but that doctor's note excused me from the rest of yesterday and today. The doctor basically doesn't want me to drive until they know whats wrong. They think that I could get dizzy, pass out and get into a wreck. Fun, right?! Not so much especially if Matt and Luke were with me. But all day I have continued to feel nauseous and a little dizzy. And with Matt at drill this weekend so it makes me feel a little helpless. I really hate that feeling. I grew up having to rely on myself and now there have been days that I barely have the energy to get up in the morning. I just can't wait for Wednesday, when my appointment for the audiologist is. I hope they figure out what is wrong. Then ill get better and it can go back to how it was before this started up again. For Luke's sake.

First day back at work.

Today started out like any normal work day for me, unfortunately it didn't last that way. I had to work at 8:30 and only ended up staying a little over an hour. I was on my second delivery, I had to go to the South Orem store then to Mc Auto. On the way to the south orem store the dizzy crap started. I was hoping that I could make to my work but only made it to Mc Auto. It got so bad I couldn't drive anymore I had to call my work on my truck's CB radio. They sent another driver to get who took me to the doctor which thankfully was across the street. I went up to the receptionist which one of my doctor's nurses was behind her. The nurse had me come straight back because I had no color in my face. I was there about an hour and a half, threw up about four times and even got a shot for the nausea. They think its an inner ear problem that is causing my equilibrium to be off. Especially since I've had this problem off and on since 2007.They don't even want me to pick up Luke which I understand but its hard. They made me an appointment to see an audiologist and my work doesn't want me to come back without another note giving me the okay to come back. The dizziness lasted for another 2 hours but I have had a bad headache since. Also I had an ear infection which I haven't had since i was little. What a weird day.

That Funky Feeling

One moment I'msitting in bed watching TV and then the next my dizzy spells start. Its like I'm watching a movie that the camera is shaking the whole time. Which ends up making me need to throw up. I just can't stand it anymore. After talking to doctors about it and getting tests done, I still have no idea whats wrong. And it just keeps getting worse and it doesn't help with taking care of Luke. It scares Matt, and I hate it when he worries. On a lighter note, yesterday Matt went for a run and left is wedding ring at home. So I took it because I have been wanting to take it in to get ritodim put on to make it look new. he hasn't thought it was necessary even though it is covered by the warranty. So I took it in and it won't be done until the 23rd. Matt finally asked me this morning if i knew where it was and i was going to keep it a secret but i couldn't do it. He's annoyed that I got my way and that his finger will be naked for 2 weeks. LOL.

So sleep may come.

Last night, after another day of Luke staying up until 5 am, we actually better luck. We put him to bed at 2 am though we started his bedtime routine at 10 pm but it was at least better. Matt and I went to Wal-mart yesterday and got this CD full of lullabies that is my new favorite baby shower gift to give. So for tonight he fell asleep on mine and Matt's bed at 8, he is still asleep. My mom thinks Luke has colic with how he's been, and I'm starting to agree. Today i had my postpartum appointment and I got the okay to go back to work without restrictions. Though I am still waiting and hoping that I'll get the job at the hospital. After I went to Burlington's and got Luke 2 church outfits he looks so cute in them! I also went to Wal-mart and got him so gripe water and so far it works!!! So we might start getting more sleep from now on YAY!

WOW, Oh how much I hate you sometimes!

Matt came home from school today just to go straight to his computer. He did tell me hello and asked how my day was so far but that's it. Yesterday he set up both of our computers, his in Luke's room, mine in ours. I understand why he wanted to but I really don't like it. Then I come to find out that his cousin paid for him to play WOW for a month. I mean i would like to play ill be honest but that's not why I'm mad. I'm mad because Matt has responsibilities that he forgets all about when he can play video games. I just feel like video game is first on his list of priorities and its hurtful. On a happier note, I had my job interview at UVRMC and I think it went very well. I interviewed for two positions and both would be great and helpful for us.I just pray I get one of them. I found out today that even though i added Luke to my insurance, the company doesn't have him as a dependant. When i called they couldn't tell me why he's still not covered. Its so frustrating.