My Mother's day

Today was quite enjoyable, went to church, visited grandmas and my mother in law, then went out to eat with my whole family. It was a great first mothers day for me and yet i feel... blah. I don't know why I'm feeling this way, its not because of the migraines though they are still just as festive as they have been. I feel lonely i guess and a little lost it and it bothers me. I mean I have a great life i shouldn't be feeling this way. I should be happily wanting to do whatever. But lately i haven't. Matt tries to help as best he can and most days he does but some days I'm way too depressed to let him. I know its hard on him and I can tell he misses the girl I use to be I just wish for his sake that I could be that girl again. I just wish it was August already then I would be busier with school so much in fact that maybe I wouldn't notice how lost, lonely and depressed I am.