Life

So lately things have become weird. Matt lost his job last Wednesday so now things have become difficult. However I feel that  it is a blessing for us at least i hope. I'm making my cousins wedding cake and I'm afraid I have bitten off more than I can chew. Though Matt would disagree, he has more confidence in my skill level then I do. Thankfully her wedding is in February and I have already started working on it. I want it to be perfect!!! I should just keep the scene in Star Wars when Darth Vader saying "I find your lack of faith disturbing" in my mind lol. On Sunday we went to visit my sister Jenna, just the three of us. She was put into a nursing home for people with disabilities last year and I miss her. But she loves it and she does a lot more then she did when she was home. When she saw us she was so happy! She wheeled herself over and pulled me down, she was either trying to give me a hug or wanting me to pick her up and carry her like I use to. Which I wish I could. My doesn't feel like it has gotten any better and i wish it was. Matt won't even let me go back to the work I was doing 2 months ago because hes afraid my back will get so bad that I'll be stuck in a wheelchair as well.